Ugh, I'm Up, I'm up.

It's about 6:30 am here and even though it is when I have to get up, I was awoken by some strange dream within a dream. This will be short and I'll probably put up some very interesting things like my re-occurring dream, hallucination and the way I learned to wake up no matter what. I have to talk about those three at the same time because they worked together. Those three things were the reason for me being so interested in these things.

But! I wanted to get this one up here because it is so fresh in my mind. I realize something that is disturbing while you are alone in the dark may seem comical to others when you tell them about it, but anyway, here it is.


I woke up, alone in the dark as I usually do when I have some nightmare. For some reason, when I awoke, I was still afraid. I couldn't place my finger on why I was afraid. It was like being a young kid again, when I was afraid of the dark for no particular reason.

I set up in my bed and not wanting to just look into the darkness of my room, look out my window where my neighbor usually has his porch light on. I see him out there on his steps, head in his hands, looking at the ground. I guessed it to be around 4:00 am. Then he snaps his head toward my window, where I was looking.

I was rather disturbed by this, and quickly got away from the window. I was still on my knees in the bed and felt rather vulnerable, alone in the dark with no covers on. I still had some strange seemingly irrational fear of the dark room I was in, but I decided I was going to just deal with it and go back to bed.

Just as I was about to get back under the covers, my mom BURSTS into my room. If the initial scare of someone bursting into your room, yelling at 4:00 am wasn't enough, she was yelling crazy nonsense. She was smiling an unnaturally large smile while yelling. She screamed so loud that I couldn't even make out words, as I had to cover my ears.

I heard ----- THE  -------- ----- DOG ON ------- ------ ------- TABLE -------- (crazy laughter.) The words were dumb and would have been funny, if her facial expression and laughter wasn't so eerie and non-human. At first I thought she was playing some dumb joke on me. I got up and started into the hall way (toward the table, just in case my dogs were on it...ha) and there my mom's eyes went huge, mouth smiling massively. She pointed a finger at me and made three forced, fake laughs "ha. HA...HA..."

Her demon like face and voice is what really struck fear into me. That fear is what triggers my technique to wake up. I had woken up from some nightmare, into another one. Feeling the fear, my auto-wake up triggers and I'm awake.

If that wasn't bad enough, I wake up paralyzed. Not all sleep paralysis has an accompanying hallucination, this one luckily wasn't. It only lasted for ten or so seconds and I was up...for real this time.

Kinda creepy...

I know people wake up during nightmares all the time, but I think the "technique" is different because I usually can recognize a nightmare before it becomes really bad. I'll probably talk about that next.

Now, though, it's time to go back to bed....

Out of My Body, With 100% More Clowns.

I've heard of out of body experiences before but never could really imagine what one would be like. I thought it would maybe be just a dream where you can see yourself. I found out about seven or eight years ago when I was on vacation.

Clowns creep me out, here is a puppy.  

I was to go to South Carolina, as my dad was working down there for the summer. I was so excited to go that I didn't sleep all night, nor all nine or ten hours down there. We got at the place around noon, and I stayed up all that day as well. Back then I had bad nightmares, and being in a new place, I was afraid to go to sleep. So I stayed up all the way until 1:00 pm the next day.

Now I'm not very good at math, but I count roughly 38 hours with no sleep.

When I finally did go to sleep, I went into a room that had two twin beds. My younger brother was sleeping in the other one. I was so incredibly tired that I was like in a coma when I finally slept. The problem was, somehow during my slumber I got into a position where my face was directly down into the bed.

I couldn't breath. I realized that I was asleep, and I realized that my face must be in the pillow or bed, but I couldn't wake up. At this point, I had already developed a way to wake myself up during any dream or nightmare, but that is for another post! Needless to say, that technique wasn't working.

I was stuck, suffocating. Now after trying to wake up but unable too, I suddenly saw myself in the bed. I could see myself face down in the pillow. I looked around the room and could see everything. I saw the light coming in the windows and my brother on the other bed.

I got on the bed where my body was sleeping and started jumping on myself, trying to wake myself up. I yelled and such but it was no luck, I was comatose. Then out of no where, some weird clown showed up (lol). Normally, I hate clowns. Even the nice ones at the circus. Maybe, because this clown was a figment of my imagination I wasn't afraid of it.

Anyway, I asked the clown to help me wake myself up. Both me and this clown started jumping on top of the bed like I had before.

I woke up, gasping for air. My brother in the bed next to me.

I've only told one other person this story, so what do you think? Am I crazy? Have you had an out of body experiences? Do I keep asking questions to people who don't comment? Hint: Last one is yes. Comment!

We're Gonna Need a Bigger Boat (a normal dream)

Image shamelessly stolen from the internet

I was in a small canoe out in the giant ocean fishing. The water was pretty clear and I saw a huge whale swim under me. Seconds later I hooked unto something that almost pulled my little boat under. After fighting it for a while I finally got it to the top of the water. It was a shark about the same size as my little boat. I couldn't put it in the boat, and for some reason I never thought to just let it go - it was a dream after all. My next idea was to bring to close to shore and just gut it with a knife I had.

Warning: Nothing past this point makes sense.

I drag the shark in my boat to a little cove in some rocks. Some super rich hotel/person had built Greek style architecture with steps that lead down into the water. It was like a house with it's own mini bay. Thats were I gutted the shark. A huge wave came right after, throwing shark guts all over their rich marble steps and walls.

Conveniently, a lady dress in a white toga came out on a balcony overlooking the steps at that same time and got PISSED. I realized this shark was too much trouble and just left it there while I ran away under a pier thing toward the place I was staying.

I had to swim under like thirty fishing lures while under the pier area which was a bit nerve wracking as I have a phobia...of being hooked by many small hooks. I get passed that and finally get to the top of the pier where I make my way back to where I was staying.

The end


I know that wasn't very exciting but I didn't want to put out all my super weird/cool experiences all at once.

I left out a lot of detail but I could smell the salt water, feel the temperature of the ocean, the rough skin of the shark and even the types of lures that were used in the pier part.

Do you're dreams usually come in this sort of story like, vivid detail?

Sleep Paralysis

So earlier today I was reminded of some sleep paralysis experiences I've had and decided I would write up a description of one of the three that I've had. This will probably be a pretty large read, oh well, this blog needed something on it!

For those of you who do not know, sleep paralysis is just what it sounds like. When you are in a dream state, your brain initiates a paralyzingly effect on your muscles. Scientist think the reason for this is so you won't hurt yourself during dreams/nightmares. When you dream, a separate part of the brain is activated. While many parts of the brain are active while dreaming, this part is what allows you to dream during REM sleep.

Normally, the part that causes dreams will turn off, and then the part that paralyzes will follow. During sleep paralysis, both the dream inducing part and the paralyzing part are active while you are awake. You are fully awake. You can use your eyes and look around your dark room. You cannot move. The immediate reaction to not being able to move is fear. And once you are afraid during paralysis you will usually get into a loop, where the more afraid you are, the more afraid you will become. Soon, you are experiencing the most fear you have and literally, ever will experience.

The Crawler


It was around 3:00am and I was happily dreaming about something I cannot remember. Suddenly, I had this urge to just wake up. When I opened my eyes everything seem fine...until I tried to move. I realized that I was completely paralyzed. The worst part? I had never known this experience was possible. I had no idea what was coming next.

I looked at my door and it was closed. Why then did I feel someone or something had just entered the room? I was lying on my side so I could only look out onto my floor and towards the door, with my peripheral vision toward the back wall.

Then, in the corner where the door was something moved. It was black as pitch and moved very fast. It didn't look human and it was extremely mad. It darted up my wall near my door, crawling like some demon from a movie. I could literally hear the paint chips and part of my wall crumbling as it dug it's claws into the wall.

Eventually it moved up to the ceiling, pausing to look down at me. I was completely helpless, and words can't describe the terror I felt. I didn't know what was happening. It continued, very rapidly over the ceiling that was directly behind me, parts of the ceiling falling onto me. Since I couldn't move, I couldn't turn to look at it.

I felt the bed move as it got jumped down. I felt the blankets moving as it clawed its way too me. I could finally see it in my peripherals. It was all black, but I could make out teeth that were even darker. It got about one inch away from my ear. I had it's hot, loud breath in my ear. It said something that I can't pronounce. Like a growl mixed with some language I didn't understand. I rocked my body as much as I could. I couldn't hardly breath and I could't even speak. I tried to yell and was unable to even whisper. I thought I was going to die.

Finally, I was able to move and it just disappeared. There was no parts of the wall missing or any parts of the ceiling on me. I sat straight up in my bed and turned my light on. I was drenched in sweat and my heart was beating out of my chest. I had no idea what had just happened. I have had some pretty terrible dreams, and even some awake / sleep hallucinations (those are for another post), but nothing topped this. I didn't even tell anyone because I thought they would think I was crazy. I was completely and utterly terrified to go back to bed for the next month.

I have many more stories related to the subconscious, including: more sleep paralysis stories, a few lucid dreaming stories, sleep / awake hallucinations, and how I became an adept dreamer. How I treated myself to stop the nightmares during sleep paralysis (not the paralysis itself).

Thank you for reading and check back tomorrow, I'll probably post my other sleep paralysis stories.

First post, dreams and the subconscious.

Hello and welcome to my blog. I'll probably use it as a sort of dream journal because the subconscious and dreams intrigues me. This first post is just a test, the rest will be about dream related things with some smatterings of random things.

Hopefully I'll be able to update often. Good night      u_u    zZZzz.