It's about 6:30 am here and even though it is when I have to get up, I was awoken by some strange dream within a dream. This will be short and I'll probably put up some very interesting things like my re-occurring dream, hallucination and the way I learned to wake up no matter what. I have to talk about those three at the same time because they worked together. Those three things were the reason for me being so interested in these things.
But! I wanted to get this one up here because it is so fresh in my mind. I realize something that is disturbing while you are alone in the dark may seem comical to others when you tell them about it, but anyway, here it is.
I woke up, alone in the dark as I usually do when I have some nightmare. For some reason, when I awoke, I was still afraid. I couldn't place my finger on why I was afraid. It was like being a young kid again, when I was afraid of the dark for no particular reason.
I set up in my bed and not wanting to just look into the darkness of my room, look out my window where my neighbor usually has his porch light on. I see him out there on his steps, head in his hands, looking at the ground. I guessed it to be around 4:00 am. Then he snaps his head toward my window, where I was looking.
I was rather disturbed by this, and quickly got away from the window. I was still on my knees in the bed and felt rather vulnerable, alone in the dark with no covers on. I still had some strange seemingly irrational fear of the dark room I was in, but I decided I was going to just deal with it and go back to bed.
Just as I was about to get back under the covers, my mom BURSTS into my room. If the initial scare of someone bursting into your room, yelling at 4:00 am wasn't enough, she was yelling crazy nonsense. She was smiling an unnaturally large smile while yelling. She screamed so loud that I couldn't even make out words, as I had to cover my ears.
I heard ----- THE -------- ----- DOG ON ------- ------ ------- TABLE -------- (crazy laughter.) The words were dumb and would have been funny, if her facial expression and laughter wasn't so eerie and non-human. At first I thought she was playing some dumb joke on me. I got up and started into the hall way (toward the table, just in case my dogs were on it...ha) and there my mom's eyes went huge, mouth smiling massively. She pointed a finger at me and made three forced, fake laughs "ha. HA...HA..."
Her demon like face and voice is what really struck fear into me. That fear is what triggers my technique to wake up. I had woken up from some nightmare, into another one. Feeling the fear, my auto-wake up triggers and I'm awake.
If that wasn't bad enough, I wake up paralyzed. Not all sleep paralysis has an accompanying hallucination, this one luckily wasn't. It only lasted for ten or so seconds and I was up...for real this time.
Kinda creepy...
I know people wake up during nightmares all the time, but I think the "technique" is different because I usually can recognize a nightmare before it becomes really bad. I'll probably talk about that next.
Now, though, it's time to go back to bed....
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